Such a big kid now.

We did it, Otto had his first day of Kindy yesterday, and after a morning of running around getting everyone ready, we arrived, early.  I imagine I am the same as any other mother, there is an intense amount of pride and love mixed with a tinge of sadness at how fast these days are flying by.

Han and I set ourselves a goal when we first started planning a family.  We wanted me to be able to stay at home with them full time until 3 years old, we have given up many luxuries, a lot of sleep, and time out to ensure that we give him the best start in life.  The feeling of achievement is immense, there were times when we were both tempted to put him in care one day a week so that I didn't have to work at night, or at least have a break during the week, but, at the end of this time together I can look back and see that it was such a gift.  For three years and four months this little boy has been by my side, as an infant, a crawler, early walker, talking, asking why and feeling the love and security of always having me there.

Today I saw a confident, happy and secure boy run off to be with his new friends, waving and blowing me a kiss as an afterthought, happy in the knowledge that after quiet time I will be there, Hugo on my hip waving madly at him through the gate ready to take him to our home.  It hasn't been a perfect three and a bit years, there are plenty of things that I got wrong, or wish I had addressed differently, but it is our story together.  Now he gets to go and make his own story.

Our right.

I don't often engage in conflict, it isn't my nature.  I expect respect for myself from others and in return I respect other peoples life choices.

This week in Australia you would have been under a rock to have missed the news that then became public fodder for debate.  As I see it, there is no debate, I know no breastfeeding mother that shows her breasts for the thrill of public nakedness.  We are all feeding our children, to the best of our ability, when they want it, how they want it, discreetly as possible.

I breastfed Hugo whilst in public this week and for the first time instead of smiling positively at people who looked in our direction I wondered what they thought of us, it was disheartening that my first instinct was not a positive reaction, that they might be offended of my son's right to milk, of my legal right to supply that to him no matter the situation.

Whether we are keeping it "classy" or not is of no ones business, in a high traffic area or not, it is also no ones business.  I understand that 'Kochie' was making his own opinions known as he is entitled, however the long reaching effect of that is being felt by breast feeding mothers everywhere who are trying their best in all sorts of circumstances to offer the best for their children.

In simple terms, these are my breasts, with milk for my children, they are not of your concern.

Hugo and I taken with my iphone.

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As I sit here writing with the wind whipping the hard rain against the window I am so grateful to be inside and warm with no risk of flooding. My thoughts and wishes are with those that are not to be so lucky this weekend.

Hugo:  He just won't let me take a photo of his new two teeth.

Otto:  Looking into a turtle that lights up, a big week for my amazing first born as he heads to Kinder for the first time.

Etsy for Hugo.

This evening I am taking a break from reading renovating blogs and had some fun trawling through Etsy.  I came up with a list of lovely items that I am dreaming of putting in hugo's room once we decorate the new house.  This is purely whimsical as we are a long way off the decorating stage having not even commenced renovating or have the keys in our posession yet.

A girl can dream though.

The loviest finds for my littlest love.

Sydney Travel Icon Baby Bib WombatsPicnic $12.00	Baby boy gift set -Wooden to... BERTYandMASHA $63.00	1930 Delightful Nursery ALPH... VintageInclina... $12.95	Two Tone Blue "Wild and... SweetSiennaPri... $18.00
Baby Bird Mobile - MADE TO O... MyHandmadeHear... $45.00	100% Linen Toddler / Cot Bed... hellomilky $90.00	Linen Mini Cloud hellomilky $28.00	Dance of Geometry mobile thecottontailr... $14.00
Organic, Natural wooden Aust... organictoyco $12.00	PIGGY PLUSHIE - Made to orde... PalookaHandmad... $38.00	Make your own 'Hunter ... JulieGraue $52.00	Mollybird Reversible Baby Sh... evielala $37.50
HAND KNIT Baby Blanket, 100%... OliviaBuxtonHa... $94.00	Hello Sailor Baby Romper NeverEver $31.00	Baby blue woollen OhOh cardi... OhOhKids $20.00	Custom Made Critter with But... ThistleandFox $68.00

Treasury tool supported by the dog house

So, we bought a house.......

Han and I have been house hunting for a while now, and on Saturday we bit the bullet and put an offer in on a house.

It isn't our dream house and certainly isn't our forever home but we are really looking forward to sprucing it up a bit.  It was from a deceased estate and the couple that died were also the original owners.  We have lived a fairly nomadic lifestyle and I can't imagine moving into a house as a newly married couple and then never leaving!  (In the space of time that Han and I have been married we have lived in 7 different houses and 3 countries.)  Hopefully before we get the keys I will be able to talk to the family and ask for photos from when it was first built which is probably around 1948.

Exciting times in this household!  We are currently in the excited phase where all we can do is dream about the improvements and renovations we would like to do, without the actual hassle of living through them with two young children and organising tradespeople.

It certainly was a great way to begin 2013.

I can't decide which should go first, the carpet over the hardwood floors or the gorgeous wood on the walls?!?

To the rescue.......

Like most boys his age Otto is addicted to Fireman Sam, Thomas was short lived and we haven't moved onto superhero's just yet.  I heard about an interactive display at the Ipswich art gallery and decided an adventure day was long overdue and we should check it out.

It was an absolute success, as with most of these things they can be a bit too old for Otto, but he still manages to find a lot of joy in the simpler exhibits.  Otto dressed up as a fireman and rescue worker, flew a rescue helicopter and rode a jet ski, scaled walls, put out fires and crawled through a house on fire.  I loved watching him explore all the areas, as he grows older it is interesting to watch how he interacts with other children and within such a chaotic environment.

Next weeks big adventure is starting Kindy.  For the first time he will be away from me, we are both ready now, the excitement from both of us for this next stage is palpable, I can't wait to hear what he does with his friends during the day!  Soon I will write about our crazy week last week, it needs to be written down somewhere.

I couldn't help but include Hugo in the fun, who could resist a fire fighter baby?  Not me anyway.

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This week has been without a doubt one of the most challenging, overwhelming and exhausting weeks of my life.  The best part of this project is that it allows me to find the good in the week, the moments that had me smiling and bursting with joy.

Later I will write about exactly what this week has done to me, but for now, the sunshine.

Otto:  Bouncing, bouncing, bouncing.  I have been trying for weeks to capture the movement and joy that he finds in doing this, I will have to keep trying.

Hugo:  He is moving so much now that at different points during the day I loose him!  He quietly shuffles off to a distant corner while I spin around trying to lay my eyes on him.

Linking up with Jodi at Che and Fidel